So I woke up feeling a little blue this morning. I've realized I have "so MUCH to do" and little motivation to do it. Being a new mommy is such a blessing but exhausting too. I was never a great house keeper and now I'm even worse! Things have started to literally pile up around me and I feel like I am in over my head! I'm sure it's just because I am so exhausted and sleep deprived that my list of "to do's" seems impossible, overwhelming and daunting.
I've made personal decisions to try to live cleaner, get more scheduled, become more organized in my personal life and practice self discipline with my nutrional choices. Well, part of me wants to say "That's for the birds!" Living by a list of "I shoulds" only stresses me out and makes me want to give up! BUT such a huge part of me wants all of this to work too! How do I do it?? I know Brentley would and could benefit from a more strict schedule, but how do I change the "fly by the seat of my pants" part of my personality to one of more discipline? It goes against everything that I've ever been. I've always liked the unpredictableness that I am. But it seems to make my life less caotic I need some organization. I know, I know, I need to start one day at a time and just get what can be done in one day completed, but I've got a bit of a lazy streak in me too when it comes to organizing my personal life. I'm not sure if it comes from knowing there is so much I want organized and accomplished or if it is purely laziness on my part. I can say ,honestly, it's probably a little of both. I like my days of "rest" and feel so much lately that I haven't had that, so when they come along I spend the day doing NOTHING. Then of course Monday comes and I'm like "why didn't I do things around the house, get something small done?!"
So to say the least I have some need for motivation! I'm working on self talk and encouragement to get this "list of shoulds" done. I'll let you know how it goes.
So my goals for the next few days?
~ Make a concious effort to ENJOY each day and the challenges it brings, otherwise life just wizzes by in miserable mode and what's the fun in that?
~ Make healthier eating habit choices- I tried starting South Beach but that takes lots of preparation so instead I will just make wiser choices each meal for now. Then as I get more organized move toward South Beach.
~CLEAN and ORGANIZE one room of the house each evening
~Finish the taxes
~Get the Thank you cards that are written sent out!!
~ Get Brentley back on a sleep/feeding schedule! I think if she would just sleep the night through everything wouldn't seem so daunting!
Okay, so those are too great of goals are they? I have to allow myself to know I CAN NOT be perfect, but I can sure do my best at reaching those goals! Okay so, seriously, now that I've completed my own treatment plan, I will re-evaluate in a few days/weeks and see what I've been able to accomplish.
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Oh my goodness, I could've written this! I know just how you feel! Sophie is still not on an exact schedule, but she is on some semblance of one! We're pretty much baby led scheduling around here (even though I read all the books that encourage parent led schedules!) Our house is on the market, so I've been forced to keep it clean. That was hugely stressful in the beginning, but it is so much easier now to keep it this way. I hope I won't ever go back! Of course, there are still junk drawers, dog hair, etc., but it's at least always pretty straight! I would encourage you to save your pennies and pay someone for a one time house cleaning. Then you can just do the maintaining. You're busy working and caring for Brentley and need to take some time to just enjoy and rest! Good luck and God bless!
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel too, I think for me I struggle with the weather getting me down also. But somedays I feel so lazy and it is hard with a new baby. I always think if he was on a better schedule maybe that would help. But what has helped me is to remember that North American culture tells us we have to be on schedule not our babies schedules... so dont get too down. I will be praying for you and if you could remember to pray for me too. Eric just said yesterday if only we could send Noah away for a day to get the house all clean... lol. so funny. anyway good luck I will pray you can accomplish even a little goal.
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